我需要勇气

2010-03-01T03:00:00.002+08:00

Woots.long long long time since i blogged.Well,it doesn't matters anyway cause nobody is reading.might closed it down soon.Byeeee!!!

棒棒堂3周年快乐！

2009-12-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

生日快乐！yeah!
加油！

生日快乐！

2009-10-30T00:02:00.001+08:00

happy birthday!敖犬

透明

2009-10-21T18:26:00.002+08:00

有时候觉得自己就像透明一样。我所要的，所说的，你们都好像听不到。我的辛苦你们也都好像看不见。
为什么都没有人试着站在我的立场想想，了解我的心情。你真的以为我很开心很好吗?
为什么你只会叫我不要想这么多，为什么你不能试着了解我的心情。

我真的觉得我好像个局外人。开心，难过，生气，都与我无关。

我知道我不够好，可是也不用这样对我吧。我也需要关心阿。

你说我放弃了吗。是的，我真的放弃了。我好累，好想离开这里。

Happy Birthday 小杰!

2009-09-25T19:28:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to liljay!(:

2009-09-08T18:31:00.002+08:00

一切又回到了原点。我真的很没有用。所以老天爷在惩罚我。

眼泪不停地流下来。

★★★★★

2009-08-23T18:18:00.001+08:00

I'm lost.I lost trust in myself and everything.I'm a loser.

★★★★★

2009-08-15T18:08:00.003+08:00

他们是我的动力。

Sometimes i just can't stop thinking about everything.I'm really worried and i would kill myself if i make another mistake because of my own stupid silly thinkings.

1 day more and there will be no more freedom.I can't be positive that i can make it true.I'm getting paronoid.Can i go through this?

我不想再做个没有用的人。我行吗？我能吗？
我没办法让你们走进我的世界里。我想是习惯一个人了吧。
因为你们一点都不了解，所以我想以后有什么事情我还是自己承担算了。

★★★★★

2009-08-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

My heart is feeling really uncomfortable.i didn't mean to shout all these.Just that when i see you all,I can't control that feeling in me.I just i just hate.

I don't wish to see them.

★★★★★

2009-08-03T15:59:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i really feel that i am a outsider.I gave so much but in the end i didn't get back anything at all.Sarciasim,scoldings.Ya,i know i am lousy,i am not any way better than her.I'm just someone unimportant right.What is this?What is all this?

Who will know what i really want.Who will know what am i feeling.You all just take me for granted.Thinking i will always be alright,always be happy.Please stop.Stop all ur sarcastic remarks about me.Even though u are my family,i will still hurt as much.

This home is only for me to sleep,eat,and bath.Nothing else anymore.You all have made me changed so much.Changed to a person that i hate so much myself.

Freinds,family all is shitty stuffs.I hate.

★★★★★

2009-07-23T14:13:00.001+08:00

我不想要现在的生活.

★★★★★

2009-07-15T17:42:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to say it.I'm feeling so frustrated.

★★★★★

2009-07-07T20:19:00.002+08:00

请原谅我的懦弱，请原谅我不真气，请原谅我的谎言。我不是故意的，

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-07-05T16:18:00.002+08:00

杨小煜生日快乐！
加油！be happy(:

★★★★★

2009-07-04T15:48:00.004+08:00

Lollipop's concert today and tomorrow in hk.And the 5th is 小煜's birthday.How cool.Must be the most memorable birthday for him(:
All the best to them!(:
How i wish i was rich enough to fly there to watch their concert.HAHA!Well,sadly i wasn't.

Anyway,just hope that their concert will be a very very very big success!加油!

Awaiting for their sg slot to be announce(:

ps.blogger sot sot.

★★★★★

2009-07-03T18:07:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wish i couldn't see nor hear.Its too tiring.Black faces,quarrels every fortnightly.Such a pain,i can't stand it.Why can't my family just stop all these nonsense.Why must they be like that everytime.Tell me,how am i going to survive?

Sometimes i wish to give up on my life and giving it to somebody who needs it badly.They will cherish it more isn't it?But yet,my heart keeps telling me not to.Because i have yet accomplish anything and there are lots of things i want to do and see.

But i am really uncomfortable and digusted with my life now.Perharps everything will be better when i start school.I will not be at home for almost half of the day.Peace by myself.

Happy-go-lucky this term doesn't seems to suit me anymore.Pardon me if i change to someone who don't talk.Pardon me if i reject everything.I just want peace and have a nice,quiet and happy life.

7/4，5棒棒堂香港我是传奇演唱会还有一天。
小煜'sbirthday还有两天。

★★★★★

2009-07-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

7/4，5棒棒堂我是传奇演唱会

加油！

★ ★ ★ ★ ★

2009-06-28T01:33:00.002+08:00

I wonder am i really alright now.Somehow it feels funny sometimes.I feel nothing now.Really nothing now.
I just feel so fake myself.Wearing a mask that i don't know myself either what this mask is.What knid of person am i now?
I'm such a loser.Time isn't going to help.I can't help myself either.Perharps perharps everything will be fine after a while.Argh...

I hate it.

★★★★★

2009-06-25T19:04:00.003+08:00

好想听你说说爱我，好想听你说说想我。

Crying doesn't helps everytime if u have problems.I don't feel better after crying everytime.Perharps sometimes only.

Truthfully,my heart really hurts a lot sometimes when i thought about the past.

★★★★★

2009-06-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

不知道为什么感觉我的生命少了些什么。是什么呢？

少了勇气？少了朋友？少了学校？少了快乐？少了信任？这些都是我知道的事情。但不知道还少了些什么。是梦想和目标吗？

要快乐很容易吗？要幸福很容易吗？那告诉我要这么做。我真的失去了很多。好像失去了一切。不过现在说这么多有用吗？我没办法把一切都抛在脑后。不管现在发生什么事，我都觉得是我害的。不管是家里，或其他事情，都好像是我的错似的。我很难过。是不是应为我的事情才会变成这样的。我没闭上眼睛，很多画面都会在我眼前闪过。不管是刚刚发生的不愉快事情，还是以前的事情，都一一地出现在我面前。

好想死。不过这能解决问题吗？不可以吧？这是个不负责任的行为对吧？

好想一觉醒来，一切都归零。

★★★★★

2009-06-22T20:51:00.004+08:00

我不开心，真的不开心。
你帮我做选择。好吗？
我不想去理也不想再去管了。就这样吧。我认命。

★★★★★

2009-06-22T19:48:00.002+08:00

Alright,new bloggy again.
Well,i think bs is better.haha.

Sometimes i really wish i can turn back the time.I feel so regretful now.That decision make me land in this pathetic state now.I really should stab myself.No matter what happens now,i can't change it anymore,I have to face it.But my braveness have gone and disappear into the thin air.Whenever it comes to making decisions,i don't know what to do.I feel so weak and tired.Like today,tears just stream down from my eyes and yet i have to stop it because mum is with me.I wish to try hard and be brave.I don't know if i can do it.I'm scared that i will give up halfway again.

why must i face all this?why did i make myself land in this state?Many whys.Pray hard i will get through all these problems.I don't wish to be unhappy anymore.